The Self

May 11, 2009
Tryptamines

This is not stuff to be taken lightly. At first it enlightens your perspective and promotes self-discovery. But its continued dialogue begins to untie your mind and dig away at the self.

From the ground up everything is gradually knocked away and imploded until you're afraid to look down -- you know you'll see the ground falling away with every step and nothing below !!VOID!!

The "light of God" extends only insofar as the Self permeates the void... it is an illusion.


Frequent trips into the psyche rub out Maya's warmth -- a voice shouting "Kyle is schizo! -- Hey Kage o' Rage!"

No! Rage is dead
there is inner contentment

"or are you just falling" ??

Checkerboard floor and beings with ballon heads
--why do the gods act like children??

Most people could not handle this but I've taken it on

Just erase yourself!
Just erase yourself!

It's not practical -- I've taken this on but the battle can only rage in the drome of my self. Within the jurisdiction of my Self there is a boundlessness...

Autonomy means nothing unless it is challenged. Do not shy away from it.

I come back to this: every person is becoming. A historical process, not an immutable self. The Self as continuous is illusory. In truth the self is created in every moment. Feel your Self at the vanguard of creation -- the Ego emerges in every new moment processed, and contains all previous moments.

IMMEDIATISM -- create the self with your whole body

ART - experience the self created by your body within every moment

philosophy - it is most immediate in a continual creation of the self by action, movement-- to bridge gaps between abstraction and sensation equals --

HUMOR moves, like a bridge over !!VOID!!
Philosophy by humiliation. . . . In the land of the jesters the Dunce is king.